I've tried to make friends in all the fandoms I've been involved with, but I have never had much success, due to my shy nature and not knowing how to interact with people on the Internet (I still don't know how, but I think I've got a bit better at that, at least people don't seem to notice how awkward I get when I talk to Internet strangers). Muse fandom has been for me like a big black hole (and please excuse my bad metaphor) that has sucked me in in such little time I got lost without even realising. This has been my first big music fandom in so many years, as I spent my teens focused on Italian music and paying attention to musicians that were only known there. It's been a huge jump, from just dealing with a one country fanbase to... worldwide people, and I'm still adjusting to that. From my experience, I can say most of music fandoms have rude people and internal fights but, the bigger the worst, and this is clearly the Muse fandom problem. It seems almost as some fans believe that, just because they're in such a big fanbase, have the right to do anything and that isn't right.
Usually, I've never had problems with 'getting lost on the crowd', especially when I abandonned my teens (and yes, I'm aware many people still think my age it could be considered as a 'teen age'). I started having a few of those issues upon entering this fandom, probably because I sought acceptation, which is always a bad bad thing to do (changing who you are, I mean). I haven't pretended to be another person, but I've detected in myself certain attitudes that in normal conditions I wouldn't have. And I'm fed up with that, I'm so fed up with pretending or covering some aspects of myself with masks. Again, I have barely done that, but I have showed certain attitudes I dislike and a me that isn't really me. And I won't put up with my shit anymore.
To sum up, most of my problems with this fandom are personal problems that little have to do with the people or the fandom itself. I've been well received here and thinking otherwise just proves me how much my mind has been fucked up these last months.
Thanks again for your words, Shay! I hope you're doing well.
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Date: 2014-03-07 09:37 pm (UTC)I've tried to make friends in all the fandoms I've been involved with, but I have never had much success, due to my shy nature and not knowing how to interact with people on the Internet (I still don't know how, but I think I've got a bit better at that, at least people don't seem to notice how awkward I get when I talk to Internet strangers). Muse fandom has been for me like a big black hole (and please excuse my bad metaphor) that has sucked me in in such little time I got lost without even realising. This has been my first big music fandom in so many years, as I spent my teens focused on Italian music and paying attention to musicians that were only known there. It's been a huge jump, from just dealing with a one country fanbase to... worldwide people, and I'm still adjusting to that. From my experience, I can say most of music fandoms have rude people and internal fights but, the bigger the worst, and this is clearly the Muse fandom problem. It seems almost as some fans believe that, just because they're in such a big fanbase, have the right to do anything and that isn't right.
Usually, I've never had problems with 'getting lost on the crowd', especially when I abandonned my teens (and yes, I'm aware many people still think my age it could be considered as a 'teen age'). I started having a few of those issues upon entering this fandom, probably because I sought acceptation, which is always a bad bad thing to do (changing who you are, I mean). I haven't pretended to be another person, but I've detected in myself certain attitudes that in normal conditions I wouldn't have. And I'm fed up with that, I'm so fed up with pretending or covering some aspects of myself with masks. Again, I have barely done that, but I have showed certain attitudes I dislike and a me that isn't really me. And I won't put up with my shit anymore.
To sum up, most of my problems with this fandom are personal problems that little have to do with the people or the fandom itself. I've been well received here and thinking otherwise just proves me how much my mind has been fucked up these last months.
Thanks again for your words, Shay! I hope you're doing well.